Having a Rough Time
I'm starting this blog as a way to cope and get support. It's a weird way to get support as one would think that friends are enough. After another big fight, I searched online and realised that most of our problems come from his uh diagnosed Autism. It's exhausting. For the same reasons that he is the right one for me, he is the wrong one. I feel such pain at his lack of empathy. Tonight here are some of the things I'm dealing with.
1. He lacks the ability to communicate directly about uncomfortable feelings.
2. He becomes so involved in some things that he isolates himself from the rest of his family. Facebook is one of his things. He will sit for hours on Facebook in the same room but not interacting with anyone. The kids will ask him for a drink or something to eat and it takes him many reminders and much time to pass before he does it. This drives me crazy because I think it sends a message to the kids that they are not important.
3. He usually has no idea what I am talking about when I explain my hurt to him. I might as well have not opened up at all because his lack of understanding and response feel like rejection. Thus I am very lonely.
4. He is not very much fun. He does not like to be spontaneous. I think it is impossible for him.
5. He has a slow processing speed next to my fast one.
